I just got home from partying at some bars downtown. I'm telling you, the strip clubs here are WILD! Totally wild! I'm telling you, they are wild! The strippers are really really HOT! Too bad i didn't brought my camera. I could have taken some pictures of those those damn strippers! Next time, I will definitely bring it!
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I'm drunk! I think I've had too many cranberry vodka tonight!
August 15, 2009
August 10, 2009
Shopping Spree!!
I went to Best Buy earlier and I can't help it but go loco over their stuffs! It's really really cheap!
So I was looking at their mobile phones when, from my peripheral vision, I saw these Digital SLR Cameras! I didn't bring mine because I thought it would be an inconvenience, but boy was I wrong! I should have brought my camera along so I can take pictures of their gadgets! I'm just not sure if it's allowed inside the store. Anyway, I felt like those cameras were calling me! I went over and, lo and behold, this Cannon camera was talking to me! It said "Hold me! Try to take some pictures using me and maybe you'll like me! Go ahead! Don't be shy!"
I was mesmerized by it's beauty! I went over and picked it up slowly. I felt like a child licking his very first lollipop! I cannot possibly let this camera go!
To cut the long story short, I spent like the entire day gushing over the darn camera. When I placed it back down, it was crying! And I am way too kind to let a camera cry. Without thinking, I approached the saleslady and said "I'm not letting her go! I'm going to buy that camera and take care of her.. Forever!"
I ended up buying the camera.. I already have one back home but I cannot simply let this opportunity go! I spent $600 for the camera. Haay. But it was all worth it.
Now that I'm thinking about it, between the camera instead of buying a new laptop, I don't really care. I can go back to Best Buy next weekend and.. I don't know.. Look around for some cheap laptop.. I hope..
So I was looking at their mobile phones when, from my peripheral vision, I saw these Digital SLR Cameras! I didn't bring mine because I thought it would be an inconvenience, but boy was I wrong! I should have brought my camera along so I can take pictures of their gadgets! I'm just not sure if it's allowed inside the store. Anyway, I felt like those cameras were calling me! I went over and, lo and behold, this Cannon camera was talking to me! It said "Hold me! Try to take some pictures using me and maybe you'll like me! Go ahead! Don't be shy!"
I was mesmerized by it's beauty! I went over and picked it up slowly. I felt like a child licking his very first lollipop! I cannot possibly let this camera go!
To cut the long story short, I spent like the entire day gushing over the darn camera. When I placed it back down, it was crying! And I am way too kind to let a camera cry. Without thinking, I approached the saleslady and said "I'm not letting her go! I'm going to buy that camera and take care of her.. Forever!"
I ended up buying the camera.. I already have one back home but I cannot simply let this opportunity go! I spent $600 for the camera. Haay. But it was all worth it.
Now that I'm thinking about it, between the camera instead of buying a new laptop, I don't really care. I can go back to Best Buy next weekend and.. I don't know.. Look around for some cheap laptop.. I hope..
August 07, 2009
Turning Point
I'm here in San Antonio, Texas waiting for a call from my doctor. I've already made arrangements about my medication and treatment. I just hope after all this hassle, everything will turn out fine. I no longer care if people knew about my condition or not, I just want to overcome this hellhole! I think I've suffered enough for me to let this Cancer take the life out of me. I will start living my life the way I want to live it. I won't let this disease dictate my actions nor decisions! It's time be free! It's about time for me to live again. I will resurrect the old me!
August 03, 2009
The Power of Tears
Earlier today, I had this urge to go out of the house. I don't know where, but I want to go out. I felt like I'm a prisoner in my own world. I couldn't breathe! I need some air!
While walking, a man stepped up to me and said, "Are you OK? Because you're quite pale." Without thinking, I answered "Of course, I've Cancer!" The guy stepped back looking like he was about to run. Then I thought, is this how it will be from now on? Every time people became aware of my condition, they'll just run away? Stupid! For people who are not informed of how and what Cancer is, they'll forever be ignorant. Cancer is not contagious like some might think. It cannot be acquired by mere handshake!
I didn't know where I was until I stumbled on a rectangular granite. I was on my mother's grave. After the realization, I went down on my knees and sobbed. It's been a while since I last visited my Mom. Knowing that where she lies is just half an hour of walk away from my house. I cried... I was emptying myself from the chaos that's been haunting me since I learned what I have. And it helped. It somehow alleviated the turmoil within. It freed me, even for just an hour or two.
Indeed, the power of crying cannot be underestimated. The famous line that says "boys don't cry" is a fallacy. Now I'd say, real boys do let their emotions take control of them. Even if it means shedding a teardrop...
I am not yet a Survivor... But I will be.. Soon..
While walking, a man stepped up to me and said, "Are you OK? Because you're quite pale." Without thinking, I answered "Of course, I've Cancer!" The guy stepped back looking like he was about to run. Then I thought, is this how it will be from now on? Every time people became aware of my condition, they'll just run away? Stupid! For people who are not informed of how and what Cancer is, they'll forever be ignorant. Cancer is not contagious like some might think. It cannot be acquired by mere handshake!
I didn't know where I was until I stumbled on a rectangular granite. I was on my mother's grave. After the realization, I went down on my knees and sobbed. It's been a while since I last visited my Mom. Knowing that where she lies is just half an hour of walk away from my house. I cried... I was emptying myself from the chaos that's been haunting me since I learned what I have. And it helped. It somehow alleviated the turmoil within. It freed me, even for just an hour or two.
Indeed, the power of crying cannot be underestimated. The famous line that says "boys don't cry" is a fallacy. Now I'd say, real boys do let their emotions take control of them. Even if it means shedding a teardrop...
I am not yet a Survivor... But I will be.. Soon..
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I just got back from the hospital. It was OK for the most part. Not bad news, but not a good one either. I thought after the last chemo session I had, the next session would be next month. Guess I was wrong. I have to do radiation this weekend. The question is, how? I'll be flying to San Antonio, TX this Thursday. I asked around and they told me that radiation session in San Antonio costs roughly around $500! Whew! That's a lot! I have to think of an alternative! Fast!
July 25, 2009
Masaya ako...
**Masaya ako! Masaya ako! Masaya ako!**
'Yan ang sinasabi ko sa sarili ko simula kaninang umaga pagkagising ko. Isang orasyon na kailangan ulit-ulitin para maisakatuparan. Isang dasal na walang katiyakan kung magiging katotohanan.
Madami-dami na din akong "laban" na nalampasan. Pero wala na yatang mas titindi sa laban na hinaharap ko ngayon. Ang dami kong gustong sabihin. Ang dami kong gusong ikwento. Ang problema, wala akong malapitan kahit isa. Kahit kapatid ko ay hindi ko makausap. Tanggap ko ang sakit na dahan-dahang gumugupo sa akin. Tanggap ko din na walang katiyakan kung gagaling pa ako.
Ilang beses na akong nagpunta sa Quiapo, Baclaran at Santa Clara upang manalangin at humingi ng tulong. At tila, hanggang ngayon, hindi pa nakakarating sa kanila ang mga hiniling ko. Marahil, mas madami ang nangangailangan ng tulong nila sa ngayon. Handa naman ako maghintay. Pero hanggang kailan?
Hindi ko kinukwestiyon ang aking pananampalataya. Dahil alam ko, tanging ang May Kapal lamang ang makapagsasabi kung ano ang hinaharap ko. Kung ano ang kahihinatnan ng lahat ng ito.
**Masaya ako! Masaya ako! Masaya ako!**
'Yan ang sinasabi ko sa sarili ko simula kaninang umaga pagkagising ko. Isang orasyon na kailangan ulit-ulitin para maisakatuparan. Isang dasal na walang katiyakan kung magiging katotohanan.
Madami-dami na din akong "laban" na nalampasan. Pero wala na yatang mas titindi sa laban na hinaharap ko ngayon. Ang dami kong gustong sabihin. Ang dami kong gusong ikwento. Ang problema, wala akong malapitan kahit isa. Kahit kapatid ko ay hindi ko makausap. Tanggap ko ang sakit na dahan-dahang gumugupo sa akin. Tanggap ko din na walang katiyakan kung gagaling pa ako.
Ilang beses na akong nagpunta sa Quiapo, Baclaran at Santa Clara upang manalangin at humingi ng tulong. At tila, hanggang ngayon, hindi pa nakakarating sa kanila ang mga hiniling ko. Marahil, mas madami ang nangangailangan ng tulong nila sa ngayon. Handa naman ako maghintay. Pero hanggang kailan?
Hindi ko kinukwestiyon ang aking pananampalataya. Dahil alam ko, tanging ang May Kapal lamang ang makapagsasabi kung ano ang hinaharap ko. Kung ano ang kahihinatnan ng lahat ng ito.
**Masaya ako! Masaya ako! Masaya ako!**
July 24, 2009
Ang napipintong pag-alis
I went to the US embassy earlier to have my Visa renewed. No hassle there. All I need to do now is find an airline ticket that's just right for my budget.. Hmm.. I wonder if Northwest service is better than Philippine Airlines...
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