November 25, 2008

Chain of Liberty

I was ready to leave the park where I usually spend my lazy afternoons away when I saw this girl in the other end clutching something in her hand. But what really caught my attention was the way she stared at nothing in particular. I can't quite explain it but I know the look. That kind of look. She's seeing more than the grassy earth infront of her. More than what the bittersweet memories can conjur.

I wasn't aware that I was walking towards her until she looked up and said I was blocking her sun out. All the time I was supposed to be walking, I was thinking how vulnerable she looked.

I apologized and said that it wasn't my intention to screen her from the sunlight. She simply looked at me with that brown eyes full of sorrow. It has to be the saddest eyes I've ever seen in my entire life.

I asked if I can sit beside her. Since she did not respond, I took that as a yes.

So there I was sitting beside the saddest girl in the world not knowing why I was there nor how to start a conversation. I was trying to think of a nice way to say "hi" but to no avail.

Then I remembered a time not so long ago when, I think I was in the same state of mind, I was sitting in the same park contemplating on how to end my problems when this guy approached me, not saying anything, and lended me his music player.

I searched my pocket for the music player since I don't usually go out without it hoping that I'd see the guy who lended it to me.

I turned it on Enya's "A Day Without Rain" and handed her an earpiece. She looked at me with questioning eyes as if asking why am I talking to her. I simply said, "I know how it feels". I asked her to put on the earpiece and listen to the music playing.

She did so without further question. She sat back beside me, stared infront and focused her attention to Enya's "oohh's" and "aahh's". All the while, I was hoping that she'd feel a little better just like what it did to me.

Right after the song ended, she looked at me with a smile. Then she added, "thank you".

I smiled in return. I felt like there's no need for me to answer simply because I know, having somebody beside you, even if you don't know the person, can mean alot. Especially if you're feeling like you're all alone.

So there we were. Strangers yet similar in alot of ways. We might not know each others quirks and stuffs, but somehow, having someone beside us was enough to get us through the day.

Tomorrow is another story. Another chapter, another book whose author still have no idea what to do and what will happen...

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I'm happy because I was able to give back what was given to me by You and your music player. I don't know how to say it, nor explain it, but it gave me peace of mind. I thank you.

Hope I see you next time I visit the park.

I've already added 23 songs in your Ipod. Hope you like 'em.Ü