Sana...

***toot toot -- toot toot***

Warbird: Malate daw tayo nila O and Rain
Macoy: Sige. Saan ko kayo pupuntahan?
Warbird: Kita nalang tayo sa kanto ng Nakpil. 'Dun sa may PNB.
Macoy: What time?
Warbird: 11:00 pm.
Macoy: O.K. Ligo na ako.

***toot toot -- toot toot***

Macoy: San na kayo?
Warbird: Dito na sa loob ng bar.
Macoy: Sige punta na ako. Sumama si Mr. Ipod. O.K. lang ba?
Warbird: Fine.

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Warbird: Bakit mo sinama si Mr. Ipod?
Macoy: Baka daw may gawin ako. Kaya ayun, binabantayan ako.
Warbird: Ang sweet!
Macoy: Is it?
Warbird: Bakit naman hindi?
Macoy: Wala lang. I guess, iba ang interpretation ko.
Warbird: Meaning?
Macoy: Basta.

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Trust me! 'Pag ikaw aalis or lalabas with your friends, hindi ka nagpapaalam sa'kin. Iinform mo ako 'pag nasa place ka na or on the way ka na. And since I trust you, na wala kang gagawing kagaguhan, hinahayaan kita. Pero 'pag ako, bawal lumabas mag-isa, bawal sumama sa mga kaibigan, bawal makipag usap sa hindi ko kilala, bawal tignan ang phone unless ikaw ang unang magbabasa ng text message. Oo nung una ang sweet. Pero sobra na.

Ilang beses ko kailangan sabihin na hindi ako magloloko. Alam ko kung ano ang pakiramdam ng nagago kaya hinding-hindi ko gagawin yun. At hindi pa ako nanggago o nangloko ng ibang tao. Kung naniniwala ka sa mga sinasabi ko, bibigyan mo ako ng oras para sa sarili ko at para magawa ang ibang bagay na guto kong gawin...

An Unwilling Subject 2

So... This is the other pic that my friend took... I know I don't have the physique, but who cares anyway? Right? Plus, I'm helping a friend here! Hehe.

Zombie 101

This is slavery!!! I've been working for 43.5 hours now. Straight! I haven't gone home to take a shower nor change clothes! But I must say, I'm still doing good. Productive as can be. Hehe. Now that's what you call bragging! Hahaha. My boss aka "slave driver" thought that if I stayed here and work my ass off, I can go on leave for at least a month! And I grabbed it! I mean, a month of fun and leisure would be nice! Very nice! Hehe. That's whats keeping me going! I bet I can extend another 24 hours!

But then again, where would I go? I've been wondering about the majestic beaches in Guam. Or probably spend the days off in Thailand. Indonesia maybe? Hmm...

First, I have to finish all these freaking reports so I can go! Boy would I love to spend an entire day in a bath tub!

Care to join me? Hehe. Just kidding! But I'd really enjoy that! I'm pretty sure I can fall asleep while enjoying a bubble bath!

An Unwilling Subject

Last night, a friend of mine asked me a favor. He's into photography at the moment and he wants to use me as a subject. I thought, I once wanted to become a model so why not "try" it. The "scene's" running through my head was the typical "me-looking-at-the-camera-with-a-smile" pose. The "pa cute" type. A far cry from my very ordinary looks. Anyways, we came into this "studio" where there are umbrellas and stuffs. I don't know what they're called although I took a basic course in Photography back in college. I was a little surprised when I saw an unmade bed in the middle of the "stage". Excuse my term for I really know nothing about photography.

But what took me aback was when my friend asked me to strip all my clothes off! Before I could even utter a word, he said "Look, sex sells. I can't afford to hire a model! Now, if you think that my would-be shots are tasteless, fine! I'm not going to open up this studio!"....

What I can't stand the most are people who loves overdoing the dramatics. Even if I belong to that group, doesn't mean I like my "kind". I know if I don't "pose" a la nude, I'll never hear the end of it. And I bet he'll make sure that I never forget it! ...

Here's a sample of the "session" we've had..




And to be clear, I dont't have a buff bod nor trying to have one... I simply wasn't breathing during the shoot. Now what can you say? Not about the subject though. Look at the pic as a whole. Is it tasteless? You think my friend should give up photography? ÜÜÜ

Paalam Kaibigan

** tok tok tok **

Asar! Ang sarap-sarap ng tulog ko tapos biglang may kakatok! Bad trip!

** tok tok tok **

"Sandali lang! Babangon na!"

** tok tok tok **

Aba mas malakas ang katok ng kung sino man ang nasa labas ng pinto!

"Ito na nga eh! Sandali lang!"

Binuksan ko ang pinto..

"Kuya! Si Gulda (Golda) patay na!"

Natigilan ako. Ang pinakamamahal kong si Golda, pumanaw na! Si Golda na walang malay. Si Golda na ang alam lang gawin sa buhay e lumangoy sa kanyang mumunting aquarium. Si Golda na hindi ko nabigyan ng sapat na atensiyon. Dali-dali akong nagtapis ng twalya at binuksan ang pinto. Hindi ko na pinansin si Inday na nakatayo sa labas ng aking pintuan na may hawak pang sandok. Pumunta ako sa sala kung saan nakalagay ang aquarium ni Golda..

"Inday! Inday! Inday! Nasaan na si Golda?!"

"Eh di binigay ku na kay Mena" (Mina). Si Mina ang pusang gala na piniling manirahan sa pad ko.

"Ha?! Pinakain mo si Golda kay Mina?! Bakit?!" Naglalabasn na ang mga ugat ko sa leeg habang tinatanong si Inday.

"Eh anu naman ang gagawin ku sa guldpis? Ip-pritu ku?! Kuya hindi yata masarap 'yun"

Kung hindi lang masama pumatay ng tao, malang pinaglalamayan na ngayon si Inday!

Hindi ko na sinagot ang napaka galing kong kasama sa bahay. Bumalik ako sa kwarto at nagibhis. Kailangan kong magluksa! Kailangan kong bigyan ng respeto ang pagpanaw ng pinakamamahal kong si Golda...

Sa park ako nagpunta. Sa park ko ipagluluksa ang pagkamatay ni Golda. Hawak ang mga pinagpipitas kong mga bulaklak, nilagay ko ang mga ito sa ilalim ng puno na lagi kong tinatambayan. Haay. Wala na si Golda.

Nagpunta ako sa isang pet shop para tumingin ng mga isda na pwede kong ipalit kay Golda. Pero iba pa din si Golda. Oo madami siyang kamukha, pero nagiisa lang si Golda.

Bumili ako ng isang pares ng Goldfish. Naisip ko, siguro hindi sila malulungkot kasi magkasama sila. Hindi katulad ni Golda na magisa lang. Ano naman kaya ang ipapangalan ko sa mga bago kong isda? Golda Junior? Golda II? Hmm..

Loise and Clark! Tama. Tandem silang dalawa! Si Loise nalang yung mas malaki ang mata. Tapos si Clark naman yung mas malaki ang ulo. Hehe. Perfect!

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Si kontrabidang Inday, sabi sa akin pag uwi ko ng bahay..

"Kuya sana Tilapya nalang ang binili nyo. O Bangus kaya. Para 'pag namatay, pwede pa natin ulamin!"

Gustuhin ko mang magalit kay Inday dahil pinakain 'nya si Golda kay Mina, natawa nalang ako.

Iba ka talaga Inday!

Dream

Head throbbing like hell and sweat trickling down the side of my face, I walked back to my pad. Everything is going crazy! Twisting and turning like they're not going to stop. I can feel my stomach turning upside down.

I can't throw up now! Not when there's like over a hundred people around me!

I looked over to my right, safe. Over to my left, safe. No! Not safe! I don't feel like it's safe. Not unless there's another soul who'll cross the street. So when a car or a bus come rushing around, it wouldn't hit me!

Nice thought! Anyway, while waiting for another person to cross the busy street, I'll sit right here in the gutter... One, Two, Three, Four, Five... Knockout! I was unconscious.

I opened my eyes and there you were. Arms wide open, eyes staring and lips smiling. I can't see your whole profile though, because there's a light emanating behind you.

I tried to call you but decided not to. We're ten steps apart. And even if I did, you wouldn't hear me. A cab stopped in front of me. I shooed him away since he's blocking you from me. When the cab moved forward, you're gone as well. Where did you go? You can't simply vanish into thin air.

I blinked, you're still not there. Wait! Someones calling my name! Could it be you? How? I closed my eyes. Squished 'em even. When I opened my eyes, I was in my room...

It was just a dream. But boy would I love to get back to that dream! I want to understand what happened. I want to know why was my head throbbing like crazy. I want to know who you are. I want to know why were you looking at me that way. I want to know why were you reaching for me. I wonder who you are. Hmm..

Totoo Ba?

Sabi nila, pag nagmahal ka daw, dapat yung buong-buo. Dapat yung walang itinatago. 'Yung walang pagdududa.

E paano kung napaka dami mong nakikitang dahilan para magduda? Pilitin mo mang sabihin sa sarili mo na walang ginagawang kakaiba ang partner mo, e alam mo sa sarili mo na meron naman. Itatanggi mo na makati ang jowa mo, pero sa loob-loob mo, minumura mo na siya ng palihim!

Napaka komplikado ng pag-big! Napaka hirap intindihin. Kung kailan nararamdaman mo nang mahal mo na siya, at saka mo naman mapapansin ang mga kakaibang bagay na ginagawa niya. Hindi mo alam kung sinasadya ba niya o tanga lang siya!

Ipapahawak sayo ang telepono, pero puro pakikipaglandian ang laman ng inbaks. Mga kung kani-kaninong pangalan at iskrin name ang naka-save sa drafts. Lintek na yan! Gaguhan ba?! Pero pag hindi naman kayo magkasama, nakakatunaw kung mag text sa sobrang lambing.

Punyetang pag-ibig yan!!!

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Hindi naman ako bitter... Ü

Stranded

I miss you Mom. So much! If I can give anything just to see you again, I'd give the world! I need you. Badly! I guess you know my dilemma at the moment. I don't know how to resolve this. Nor how should I go about it. All I know is, I need you!

My brain is telling me to stay. But my heart is asking me to resign. I'm not happy anymore! At first I thought, if I hang around, I might probably like it here. I thought I already do. As it turned out, I don't have enough reason to stay. No one gave me enough reason to stay.

Will a couple of months do? I'll just tie-up some loose ends then I'll be on my way...